College. College has been in the back of our minds since we entered junior high, and our counselors have been pestering us about what do we want to do with our lives after high school ever since.
My 13-year-old self didn’t know what to say or do when it came to the topic of picking a career when asked to. I didn’t know I had to know what I wanted to do with my life after high school. I didn’t even know what I wanted to do after junior high.
Then 9th grade came around and I started to get an idea of what career I wanted and what college I wanted to go to. BUT I STILL WASN’T SURE WHAT I WANTED BECAUSE I WAS ONLY 15.
I entered high school, still not sure what I wanted to do after high school, with high hopes of maybe finally figuring out what I want to do with my life and finding myself. Sophomore year, I was somewhat able to avoid thinking about life after high school and was able to enjoy school like a regular 16-year-old girl. During this time, I found that I have a strong passion for art. I started to think that I may want to get into the arts for my career and go to an art school. But I still was hesitant on what I wanted because I was just a sophomore and I wasn’t the sharpest tool in the shed at the time.
Junior year hit, and with it came the ACT, the test that when you open, you have no idea what you’re looking at, and whose test score apparently determines our future. I bring that up because I’m not very book smart. I have never been good at math, reading, or science. Opening the letter with my test results was nerve-wracking. I was opening what could possibly be my future. My score was a 15. I wasn’t surprised, but it was somewhat disappointing. But like I said, I’m not very book smart. Having my score possibly being seen by art schools I chose scared me. Why do I bring up the ACT scores? I bring them up because having schools say that score will be your future is beyond stressful and it also hurts self-esteem. I’m a senior, and that score still haunts me. I feel like I’m not able to get into any school, and I also feel like my artistic talent is pointless.
I’m writing this to tell everyone that IT’S OKAY IF YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO DO AFTER HIGH SCHOOL AND/OR IF YOU’RE NOT BOOK SMART.
You can still have a future, and you will be happy and successful even if you’re unsure about what you want to do after high school. If you go to college, you have to do two years of general classes, so you can still think about your major then. Also, I have friends and family who have changed their majors multiple times and who still don’t know what they want to do.
I’m not saying that it’s okay to not be productive after high school and just live in your parents’ basement. You should still work and see what you want for yourself. I’m also not bashing our counselors or administration for pushing us to make decisions about our futures. They work hard to help us, and I’m very grateful for what they do for us. What I’m saying is that it’s 101% okay to not know what you want after school, and it’s also 101% okay if you’re not very smart like myself. I know a lot about the arts and such, but when it comes to math, reading, and science, etc., I’m dumb as a rock, and I’m actually okay with it. I know what I’m capable of, and I know that if I stay productive and a work hard, I’ll be able to get into a good college and find the career I want to be in. I’m starting beauty school after I graduate so I have a trade to fall back on, and I’ll be working my butt off so I can provide for myself.
Everyone, enjoy high school while you can. Don’t spend it worrying about the future. I have spent my all of my time in high school worrying about those things, and I didn’t stop and enjoy being young and having fun at school events. Life has gone by so fast that I have started to live by the famous words from Ferris Bueller: “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it.”